Five years ago today was the worst day (so far) of my life. It was the last day of my son’s life.
B.J. died by committing suicide. He hung himself in a storage shed in our back yard. He was 21. He was suffering from horrendous side effects caused by the medication prescribed by a psychiatrist after one 5-minute office visit. Effexor XR. Now an admitted provoker of suicide and murder…(See page 37 of the FDA Warnings on Effexor http://www.fda.gov/cder/foi/label/2005/020699s059lbl.pdf)
Today is the first “anniversary” of his death that I have managed to drag my a** in to the office. 9/3 is a day better spent in bed for me. Depressed? You bet. Need a pill for it? Not on YOUR life, much less mine.
There are many others who live in my hell. Bless Steph G. from across the pond…her daughter, Sharise, died in May 2003. Steph sent me an email this morning telling me that she was thinking of B.J. and me today. One of my son’s BEST friends from high school “texted” me with similar thoughts this morning. My son’s fiancee’ (now raising her two sons in Cali with her fiancee’ Aaron) is “keeping busy” today. My daughter still doesn’t speak much about her brother’s death. I doubt she’ll even mention it. And that’s fine. She has to heal in her own way.
My parents, on the other hand, would be immensely proud that I went to work today – if we still spoke. After all, the last conversations I had with them (a couple of years ago) revolved around the “fact” that I need to “move on,” “get over it,” and “deal with it.”
Imagine telling someone who lost their son to “get over it!” Whatever. They were all too ready to discount the horror stories about these drugs that I had to share. Too like many others I have spoken with…all trusting of the medical/pharmaceutical cabal.
The fight my husband and I have undertaken is a bit overwhelming. We are not alone. And that’s part of what’s so overwhelming.
We belong to the following news/activist/Internet groups:
SSRI-Crusaders – http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/SSRI-Crusaders/
Parents Against TeenScreen – http://www.psychsearch.net/teenscreen.html
Atypical Antipsychotics – http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/Atypical_Antipsychotics/
Oh, there are several others, but these are the ones we are most active in.
All of these groups have similar purposes…to inform the U.S. citizenry about the atrocoties and frauds being committed on innocent people who make the mistake of trusting their doctors, the pharmaceutical industry, and the media.
There are thousands of people working to inform others about the actions of these money-grubbing immoral pigs. But sometimes it seems we are just screaming into the wind.
I speak to so many people about the horrible side efects my son suffered. Rapid weight loss. Insomnia. Racing thoughts. Violent nightmares. Violent “daymares” where you experience a dreamlike state and “see” horrible things happen in yor mind’s eye. Confusion. Fear. Appetite loss. Suicidal thoughts…ruminating, compelling, unending. A very hyper feeling that he needed to “escape from his skin” which we now know is a condition called akathisia. Most people don’t listen. Even though they (or a loved one) is taking one of the many drugs that cause these side effects. Psychotropic medications in general are bad news.
Based on flawed “science,” there is no hope for these drugs to be proven beneficial to humans. Other than the humans who are pocketing the billions in profits reaped each year from peddling death in a pill. Suicide. Murder. Self-harm. Insomnia. Anorexia. Weight loss. Weight gain. (Huh? Yes, they can cause either of these two opposite side effects…it all depends on your body chemistry…which docs are unaware of until AFTER you take a pill…but then it’s often too late.)
The best single website I have found that puts all of this into perspective is www.breggin.com. Dr. Peter Breggin has been screaming about these drugs for years.
Effexor. Prozac. Cymbalta. Zoloft. Risperdal. Wellbutrin. Lexapro. Paxil. Celexa. Geodon. Abilify. Killers all.
1 Comment
September 28, 2008 at 5:36 am
That is so wrong for people to tell you to just get over it. Heartless. People told me the same thing about my baby almost dying and then after I got off Zoloft people told me to just get over it & not talk about it. I can’t imagine saying that to someone who actually lost a child. What are they thinking? You are right to speak out and don’t let anyone make you think otherwise.